Because you see, I have a problem with a different type of people. The perpetually happy, sunny type of person with a smiley disposition that will blow your mind. I feel really bad but they annoy the shit out of me.
They always say how lovely things are and they seem to have this horrendous problem of not being able to remember my name. They are focusing so hard on remaining happy that they can't seem to find any more space in their simple mind for a name that isn't Sally.
They can find something positive in every situation:
"Isn't it a wonderful day?"
No, it's raining and cold.
"I love the look of the light off the hills."
I'm blind from the glare.
Admittedly, I am a bit of a pessimist but I can't help thinking that those eternal optimists are a little bit dim. They are like those ostriches who shove their heads so far down in the sand they can't see or hear anything. They would rather pretend something isn't happening than deal with a problem that is occurring right in front of them. They smile and look away.
The other issue I have is that I would rather someone say something mean about me to my face than say it behind my back or behave in a passive aggressive manner. A sunny Sally will never tell you that you are a bitch but one day when she's exhausted from being happy all her life she will lose her mind and burn your house down. Which is worse?
Maybe I'm jealous. It's hard when you're the type of person that sees the shit at the bottom of a rose bush. It's hard being the type of person that gets the 'ragies' over lifes' injustices and it's hard being the person that doesn't like that 'happy' person that everyone else loves.
But I can't help it. My mum says I have always been moody. There are photographs of myself as a child with my 'moody' face on. Don't get me wrong, I am happy and I do see the beauty in life. I'm just not happy all the time and I don't think everything in the world is beautiful and good.
But if I didn't experience any 'bad', how would I appreciate any 'good'?
Here's a toast to the pessimists and the realists They get a bad rap!